released July 21, 2005
Executive Produced by Crucifix
Cover Art & Graphic Design by Crucifix
@2005 Cruce Signati
all rights reserved
- Track Name: My Death's Prayer
Written by BabyBlue
Produced by BabyBlue
Published by Crucifix Music (ASCAP)
©2005 Crucifix World
- Track Name: A Young Girl's Scars
A young girl 14, watching life fly past, everybody sees her crying, no one stops to ask. About to break, the pain is too great to take… her last dreams disappeared with the tears on her face. God, a broken heart is all she's got left to hold, all alone as she stands with her guilt in the cold. All these lies of finding love she could never discover, blaming herself because no one ever cared to love her. Just wanting to be held, loved and respected, she accepted the heart of a stranger afraid of being rejected. All his sweet words seduced her ears and the passion in his voice took the place of her tears. He promised Heaven on earth and promised the world, the healing words for the hurt of this poor, lost girl. Now she can smile for the first time, happily blind and bound by the same man who took the tears she was crying. So that her heart could breathe, now her spirit is free, thinking "This is the way love ought to be"… So naive, young girl please, how do you really know what love is supposed to be?
This broken road to your pain is lost behind your heart and fades away in time. All the things you thought would change, stayed the same and still you believed all his lies with crying eyes…
This young girl sitting' at the bar, drunk as fuck, smiling at him as he pours another drink in her cup. Another time… another time… another time… now the world around her is spinning and she's losing her mind. "But don't worry baby, cuz we'll be home soon." Holding her hand as he walks her to the hotel room. He locks the door before he starts ripping her clothes, pretends he can't hear her screaming as she's telling him "No!" He throws her back on the bed, tears open her legs, runs his dick inside her stomach as she helplessly begs. Feeling like this cracker's bitch, a whore and a slut. Squeezing tears through her eyes from the pain in her gut. With all the guilt she tries to hide her face in the pillow, so ashamed from the pain that she's losing her feelings. Watching her cry as he fucks her, again and again. All she wants to do is die so that this night would end. And as she bleeds, she prays that it's all just a dream… believe the pain will finally leave every time that she screams "God please!" She tried to close her eyes in peace, but can't sleep with him laughing at the blood on the sheets. Her heart beats in her chest, under her breasts… her skin crawls from the sinfulness that sits on her flesh. This motherfucker… wanted more than just a lover, but if she can't love herself how will anybody else love her?
You cry inside asking God, why you have this heart that love forgot. Where's the peace when life gets hard? No one understands this young girl's scars…
It's got you telling yourself, that there's got to be something better than hell, and all the tears you cried were lost on that same night that your heart died. There's got to be a better way to make all of these memories go away… but still inside you know you'll find this pain for the rest of your life, looking for some peace of mind. Because everything that you see and believe is gone, and everything that you ever knew was wrong. You're tearing up your heart and you're so confused and fucking up the last thing you got to lose… Little girl it's tearing at you and you're trying to fight. It's tearing at you and you're losing your mind. It's tearing at you and you start to cry… it's tearing at you and you're ready to die with crying eyes.
This young girl, not so young anymore, still hurt and broken from her past because she feels like a whore. About to break, the pain's too much to take, her last dreams disappeared with the hate and the rape. Now she's hopeless screaming loud "Love is a lie!" and everybody "understands" but no one knows what it's like, to see life through her eyes, to walk in her shoes. To spend a day in her skin to feel what she went through. With years she aged, and the price she paid, was the pain in her heart from someone else's mistake. Until she finally found someone who would love her for her, and hold her hand as he walked her through the memories that hurt. Now things are getting better, about to have a child, the first time in her life that she's been able to smile. From her suffering she learned the true meaning of love, seeing her heart was never lost with her virgin blood. And to that man who abused her, tried to break her in half. Scarred and hurt, but she refused to be held back by her past. And you ruined her life when you raped her that night… But I forgive you and so does my wife...
You cry out loud, thanking God that He healed this heart that love forgot. And now there's peace when life gets hard. Someone understands this young girl's scars. So little girl wipe those tears from your eyes because everybody suffers and everybody cries. But Jesus loves you and you know that I do too. Little girl you are so beautiful and that beauty is inside of you! You're so beautiful, and all you need to know, is that it's God inside of you.